Holy Cow people!! Here I am at 26 weeks....I think I look twice as big as my 25 week post!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Parenthood
So, it's been quite some time since I have written and much has changed in our lives. Rob and I married in July of 2009 and in June 2010 Rob and I spoke about the possibility of having a child. We thought about it for a few days and decided that we would like to give it a try for at least 6 months. We decided that we would be happy if we became pregnant but, would be fine if we were not able to conceive. After all, we are no spring chickens!!
2 weeks later, I was pregnant!!! I am due on March 24, 2011 and am very excited that I am going to become a mommy. Rob is equally excited to become a daddy as well. I am currently 6 months pregnant and am enjoying every moment of it....well, with the exception of the heartburn and sleepless nights. We found out that we are expecting a little girl -- which Rob has deemed as his little princess. We have decided to name her Allison Gael Flaherty. We wanted to incorporate an Irish name for Rob's heritage and came up with Gael, which is short for Gaelic. There are many, many, many strange Irish names out there; this was about the only one that seemed normal to us!
To know that life grows inside of me is an awesome feeling. I feel our little girl moving around inside of me and I cannot believe that I have been so blessed to be given this gift. I imagine my life as a mommy and I can only picture happiness. There is no dread, there is no fear...just happiness. I love her so much even though I have not met her, or touched her face. It is that bond that a mother has with child -- from the day you find out you are pregnant, to the first time hearing the heartbeat, to the first time seeing your baby on an ultra sound. You picture your baby as a newborn and then growing older and all of the things that you want to teach them and experience with them.
I plan on giving my all to my child. All of my love, all of my attention, all of my spirit. Anything she wants, anything she needs, Mommy and Daddy will provide for her. She is going to be so spoiled, but I don't really care. I want to give my child the life I never had. I want her to have normalcy, I want her to have kind parents, a nice home, a sense of pride. Mostly, I want her to feel safe. I'll do anything to protect her. She is my world.
2 weeks later, I was pregnant!!! I am due on March 24, 2011 and am very excited that I am going to become a mommy. Rob is equally excited to become a daddy as well. I am currently 6 months pregnant and am enjoying every moment of it....well, with the exception of the heartburn and sleepless nights. We found out that we are expecting a little girl -- which Rob has deemed as his little princess. We have decided to name her Allison Gael Flaherty. We wanted to incorporate an Irish name for Rob's heritage and came up with Gael, which is short for Gaelic. There are many, many, many strange Irish names out there; this was about the only one that seemed normal to us!
To know that life grows inside of me is an awesome feeling. I feel our little girl moving around inside of me and I cannot believe that I have been so blessed to be given this gift. I imagine my life as a mommy and I can only picture happiness. There is no dread, there is no fear...just happiness. I love her so much even though I have not met her, or touched her face. It is that bond that a mother has with child -- from the day you find out you are pregnant, to the first time hearing the heartbeat, to the first time seeing your baby on an ultra sound. You picture your baby as a newborn and then growing older and all of the things that you want to teach them and experience with them.
I plan on giving my all to my child. All of my love, all of my attention, all of my spirit. Anything she wants, anything she needs, Mommy and Daddy will provide for her. She is going to be so spoiled, but I don't really care. I want to give my child the life I never had. I want her to have normalcy, I want her to have kind parents, a nice home, a sense of pride. Mostly, I want her to feel safe. I'll do anything to protect her. She is my world.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
New Job
I started my new job today. I definitely have a lot to learn!! Far more than what I had originally thought!
I know I'm up for the challenge though. I have to get used to working in such a relaxed atmosphere...and my co-workers are a little crazy...but I'm sure I'll adjust. Hell, I had better adjust....I can't quit this job too!
I have to get use to all of the driving also. The trip really isn't all that bad except for Hwy 36 and all of the evil traffic lights that I encounter on my way home. Again, this is something that I will adjust to as well.
I know I'm up for the challenge though. I have to get used to working in such a relaxed atmosphere...and my co-workers are a little crazy...but I'm sure I'll adjust. Hell, I had better adjust....I can't quit this job too!
I have to get use to all of the driving also. The trip really isn't all that bad except for Hwy 36 and all of the evil traffic lights that I encounter on my way home. Again, this is something that I will adjust to as well.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
New Beginnings....Again!!
Submitted my resignation at my current job and will start a new one on April 2nd. We are going to be poor for a while because I took a rather large paycut....but, it will be worth it in the long run.
I had to learn the hard way that money cannot buy happiness. Well, that's not entirely true. Money can buy you things to make you happy but, you cannot truly enjoy those things if you have an aching dread in the back of your mind. It took a lot of guts for me to make this decision and I am more than certain that I have burned a few bridges along the way. Ultimately, I was not happy with my career and it was time that I made a change. It may come back to bite me in the ass when all is said and done but it will be worth it to at least take a chance and give it a try.
I had to learn the hard way that money cannot buy happiness. Well, that's not entirely true. Money can buy you things to make you happy but, you cannot truly enjoy those things if you have an aching dread in the back of your mind. It took a lot of guts for me to make this decision and I am more than certain that I have burned a few bridges along the way. Ultimately, I was not happy with my career and it was time that I made a change. It may come back to bite me in the ass when all is said and done but it will be worth it to at least take a chance and give it a try.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Random thoughts
I do not like working from home. I want to work in an office again....It is too lonely working from home....I need social interaction....I miss driving to and from the office everyday....I miss listening to the radio while driving...I actually miss having to dress up each day to go to work....I miss other human life forms....
I am driving home to Columbia next week for a business trip. I'm really excited about it!! I get to see my friends and, possibly, my family...if they have time for me.... I can't wait to drive around town without fighting massive traffic and I also want to check out my old apartment to see if it has been rented yet.
After the two days in Columbia, I will be really excited to return home to my love and our animals. I will probably start counting down the hours until I return home the moment I check into my hotel room....I'll get home next Wednesday and get all dolled up for my sweetie and greet him at the door when he gets home. I love my Bere...he makes everything better. I'm going to make him buy me a chicken dinner.
I am driving home to Columbia next week for a business trip. I'm really excited about it!! I get to see my friends and, possibly, my family...if they have time for me.... I can't wait to drive around town without fighting massive traffic and I also want to check out my old apartment to see if it has been rented yet.
After the two days in Columbia, I will be really excited to return home to my love and our animals. I will probably start counting down the hours until I return home the moment I check into my hotel room....I'll get home next Wednesday and get all dolled up for my sweetie and greet him at the door when he gets home. I love my Bere...he makes everything better. I'm going to make him buy me a chicken dinner.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Funny Story
Sorry folks, but I this is funny. More power to the guy!! LOL
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Monday, December 24, 2007
General Crap....
So, tomorrow is Christmas day. Rob and I are looking forward to laying around watching A Christmas Story and Trading Places, opening presents and making a nice dinner. No big thrills for us....It's our second Christmas together.
The new job is kind of sucking. Not sure if I like it or not. Not sure what I am really suppose to be doing or how I should start. I have a general idea but have no real direction as to what my authority or limitations are. I'm going to give it a shot though...it will be good to have on my resume.
The cat and dog are getting along for the most part. Pixel gets really jealous of the cat at times but gets over it eventually. It's going to take some time for her to get used to having to share. She is very protective of me and Rob and gets a little crazy at times if the cat gets too close. She snuggles up to me everynight in bed and keeps my hiney warm.
I love living here with Rob but am starting to get bored. I work from home and do not get out of the house much. Yet another reason why the job is sucking. It's dark by the time I get off of work so there's no room to go out, drive around and explore. I need to join a gym or something to get out of the house. I've also put on 10 pounds since I have moved here! Too much food and too little exercise I guess.
Looking forward to the new year and Spring! Once Spring arrives, I will be more apt to get out of the house and learn my way around the city. I've learned some of the side streets on the North East side and can get to all of the places that I need to. It's too damn cold out to go anywhere else so the grocery store, Wal Mart and Kohls are about the only places I go.
I know I sound like I am bitching a lot. I'm actually very happy!! I think that this time in my life right now is the happiest that I have ever been. I'm pretty much at peace with everything and things only seem to get better! I'm really thankful for all that I have...even the job. The job is just something that I have to get use to over time and it will all fall into place eventually. Love and Health are what is most important and I have both!
The new job is kind of sucking. Not sure if I like it or not. Not sure what I am really suppose to be doing or how I should start. I have a general idea but have no real direction as to what my authority or limitations are. I'm going to give it a shot though...it will be good to have on my resume.
The cat and dog are getting along for the most part. Pixel gets really jealous of the cat at times but gets over it eventually. It's going to take some time for her to get used to having to share. She is very protective of me and Rob and gets a little crazy at times if the cat gets too close. She snuggles up to me everynight in bed and keeps my hiney warm.
I love living here with Rob but am starting to get bored. I work from home and do not get out of the house much. Yet another reason why the job is sucking. It's dark by the time I get off of work so there's no room to go out, drive around and explore. I need to join a gym or something to get out of the house. I've also put on 10 pounds since I have moved here! Too much food and too little exercise I guess.
Looking forward to the new year and Spring! Once Spring arrives, I will be more apt to get out of the house and learn my way around the city. I've learned some of the side streets on the North East side and can get to all of the places that I need to. It's too damn cold out to go anywhere else so the grocery store, Wal Mart and Kohls are about the only places I go.
I know I sound like I am bitching a lot. I'm actually very happy!! I think that this time in my life right now is the happiest that I have ever been. I'm pretty much at peace with everything and things only seem to get better! I'm really thankful for all that I have...even the job. The job is just something that I have to get use to over time and it will all fall into place eventually. Love and Health are what is most important and I have both!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Work Begins
So, today is my last day of freedom. I begin my new job tomorrow and am torn as to whether or not I am looking forward to it. I am flying to South Carolina in the morning and will begin training as a project manager for a fuel delivery software company. I'm really nervous about it because everyone there seems super smart and on top of their game. I know they would not have offered me the job if they hadn't felt the same way about me! It's just, project management is a highly involved and very difficult job to do. You have to keep everyone on track and be on top of EVERYTHING and step on toes to get your job done. I worry that I am going to go into this without any friends because I am going to be on everyone's case until they get their jobs done!!
Look, I know I can do the job, it's just weird for me to be doing it for another company. I was with my former company for 16 years and it is all that I have ever known. I worry that everyone will be smarter and faster than me. I was one of the golden children at my former company and everyone came to ME for help and for information. I was valued...and I worry that I may not be as valuable here and that worries me. Failure worries me. I need to find my confidence!
Look, I know I can do the job, it's just weird for me to be doing it for another company. I was with my former company for 16 years and it is all that I have ever known. I worry that everyone will be smarter and faster than me. I was one of the golden children at my former company and everyone came to ME for help and for information. I was valued...and I worry that I may not be as valuable here and that worries me. Failure worries me. I need to find my confidence!
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Move Complete
Ahhhh, the move to Indianapolis is now complete. It's been a long rough week so far...mainly due to all of the unpacking and cleaning. We have so much work to do but a limited amount of time to do it before Rob goes back to work. We do not want to spend all of our time working on the house while he is on vacation so we are trying to make a little fun time. We managed to make it to the movies earlier in the week and we visited my holy place a few times...yes, I am talking about the Wally World!
I've actually been feeling a little under the weather this week. I'm not sure if it is nerves and stress or if something is going on with me but, only time will tell! It's probably some type of chemical from all of the cleaners I have been using this week. The old bachelor pad is starting to turn into a home now! No more pool table in the middle of the living room and the road gear cases have finally gone back to their rightful owners!! Trust me folks, those two items have been a major battle for the ol' Shannie Bug to win!
Friday, November 2, 2007
New Beginnings
So I'm sitting here on the floor in my empty dining room waiting for my Fiance to arrive. I'm moving to Indianapolis tomorrow to be with him and my life is going to change forever.
I have lived in my apartment for 10 years. I've also lived alone for those 10 years with the exception of one roommate that only lasted for 3 months. I've always been so independent and have never relied upon anyone for anything. The times that I have tried to, I have been let down in the end. I'm getting ready to give up that independence to be with Rob and I'm a little nervous about it. It's not that I think that he will try to change me in any way shape or form, it's just that I have been doing things my way since I was 18 years old and now I have to consider someone else. Sure, I've been in relationships before where I tried to be considerate, but this is on a totally different level. I've always been the one in control...a natural born leader...and I worry that my take charge attitude may rub off on him the wrong way. He's been on his own for a long while also and has his own independence. He has the same fears that I do. But, ultimately, we know that a life without one another would be totally unacceptable! I'm ready to take this plunge and dive in head first and worry about the confrontations later. We have agreed to be patient with one another and to love one another no matter what challenges we face over the next couple of months while we get acclimated to one another. It's gonna be a wild ride!!
I have lived in my apartment for 10 years. I've also lived alone for those 10 years with the exception of one roommate that only lasted for 3 months. I've always been so independent and have never relied upon anyone for anything. The times that I have tried to, I have been let down in the end. I'm getting ready to give up that independence to be with Rob and I'm a little nervous about it. It's not that I think that he will try to change me in any way shape or form, it's just that I have been doing things my way since I was 18 years old and now I have to consider someone else. Sure, I've been in relationships before where I tried to be considerate, but this is on a totally different level. I've always been the one in control...a natural born leader...and I worry that my take charge attitude may rub off on him the wrong way. He's been on his own for a long while also and has his own independence. He has the same fears that I do. But, ultimately, we know that a life without one another would be totally unacceptable! I'm ready to take this plunge and dive in head first and worry about the confrontations later. We have agreed to be patient with one another and to love one another no matter what challenges we face over the next couple of months while we get acclimated to one another. It's gonna be a wild ride!!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Miss the kitty
Dropped off Boo in Indy this past weekend. It's going to be more than 2 weeks before I get to see him again. I miss my little buddy....
Uggggghhhhh
Enough already!! November 3rd had better get here soon or I'm going to kick it's ass!! I wish I could move TODAY!! I would so love to walk in to my job tomorrow and tell them I quit but I will uphold my promise to stay until the end of the month. I'm sure I will miss people but I will not miss the job!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Truly Blessed
Great things have happened in my life this year....I feel truly blessed by the man above!
I've found happiness in my love life and am now engaged.
I excelled at the workplace and was promoted to a higher position in the company.
I gave my notice at work so that I can move to Indianapolis to be with my fiance and in return was offered a job by one of our partnering companies.
My new job will allow me to work from home and also travel the country for free. It also pays me more than I am making now and appears to offer great benefits (will know more about the health and dental benefits once I begin working)!!
I've found happiness in my love life and am now engaged.
I excelled at the workplace and was promoted to a higher position in the company.
I gave my notice at work so that I can move to Indianapolis to be with my fiance and in return was offered a job by one of our partnering companies.
My new job will allow me to work from home and also travel the country for free. It also pays me more than I am making now and appears to offer great benefits (will know more about the health and dental benefits once I begin working)!!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
On the brink....
Here it is. October 1st...the beginning of my last month at work and my last month in Missouri. Exciting and scary all at the same time. My fiance came to town last weekend and moved a load of my furniture and boxes which has made the fact that I am moving all the more real to me. This past weekend I cleaned out my spare closets and found a ton of old pictures that brought back a lot of great memories. It actually made me sad and a bit depressed that I am leaving...but, I have to remember that those are only pictures and that the girl who is in most of them no longer exists. Those friends have long since moved on in their lives and it is time that I do so in mine.
I have no idea what the future is going to hold for me. I'm moving to Indy for love and that is all that I am going to have! I do not have a job or anything lined up yet...for once in my life, I am being irresponsible! I never thought in a million years I would quit my job when I have so many bills to pay. I began saving money though several months ago and will have plenty to tie me over until I find a job....so I can't say that I'm being too risky! I'm going to be alright no matter what job I find. My fiance is a great guy and will take care of me and will see to it that I am happy and well taken care of. I will do the same for him...we waited a long time to find this kind of happiness. We deserve every ounce that we get!
I'm traveling to Indy in a couple of weeks to open up a new bank account and to drop off my kitty Boo at my new house. I am going to go 3 whole weeks without seeing him...I'm already feeling lonely and depressed! You never realize just how much a pet means to you until they are gone. My fiance is going to have a lovely time cleaning his litter box!! LOL
I have no idea what the future is going to hold for me. I'm moving to Indy for love and that is all that I am going to have! I do not have a job or anything lined up yet...for once in my life, I am being irresponsible! I never thought in a million years I would quit my job when I have so many bills to pay. I began saving money though several months ago and will have plenty to tie me over until I find a job....so I can't say that I'm being too risky! I'm going to be alright no matter what job I find. My fiance is a great guy and will take care of me and will see to it that I am happy and well taken care of. I will do the same for him...we waited a long time to find this kind of happiness. We deserve every ounce that we get!
I'm traveling to Indy in a couple of weeks to open up a new bank account and to drop off my kitty Boo at my new house. I am going to go 3 whole weeks without seeing him...I'm already feeling lonely and depressed! You never realize just how much a pet means to you until they are gone. My fiance is going to have a lovely time cleaning his litter box!! LOL
Friday, August 24, 2007
JUSTICE!!
Call me a sinner for advocating death but this sick Fu#ker is going to get what he deserves. Now, if they would just do it soon and not allow him any appeals, the world will be a better place! I feel that any man who rapes a child and buries her alive should suffer the same fate. Unfortunately, he is going to have a painless death by injection.... I'm reminded of the movie Little Nicky with Adam Sandler...every day they bring Hitler into Satan's office and shove a different type of device up his ass. Maybe this will happen to John Couey when he reaches hell.Now, would you like me to tell you what I really think? LOL
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Work....
Only 76 more shopping days until I move to Indianapolis. Only 55 more working days!!! I'm taking an entire month...maybe two...off from working once I move out to Indy. I've been busting my hump and being a good girl saving up enough money so that we can live comfortably in case the new job search doesn't go so well.
I've worked for the same company for the last 16 years. It's the only full time job that I have ever had. I love the company, I love the people at our office....I just hate my current position. Not my job title mind you; it is one that I have been waiting for for a very long time. I just hate the monotony of it all. The same people calling day in and day out with the exact same problems as they had the day before. you would think that these people would be able to figure shit out on their own after awhile, but no - some of them are just as helpless now as they were 5 years ago when we installed them with a computer system. I'm definitely going to try to find a job where I will not be required to provide technical support to ANYONE!!
I want to take my time and figure out exactly what it is I want to do. This is my opportunity to totally re-invent myself...do what I want to do and be who I want to be without others passing judgement on me. Hell, I may find that working at Wal Mart or Taco Bell is my true passion!! I may end up working 10 different jobs over the next year until I find something that suits me and truly makes me happy. I'm really excited to get started and just hope and pray that I find something that is rewarding to me...that I feel passionate about and that I enjoy doing. I'm tired of waking up each morning with the feeling of dread....I need a change dammit!!
I've worked for the same company for the last 16 years. It's the only full time job that I have ever had. I love the company, I love the people at our office....I just hate my current position. Not my job title mind you; it is one that I have been waiting for for a very long time. I just hate the monotony of it all. The same people calling day in and day out with the exact same problems as they had the day before. you would think that these people would be able to figure shit out on their own after awhile, but no - some of them are just as helpless now as they were 5 years ago when we installed them with a computer system. I'm definitely going to try to find a job where I will not be required to provide technical support to ANYONE!!
I want to take my time and figure out exactly what it is I want to do. This is my opportunity to totally re-invent myself...do what I want to do and be who I want to be without others passing judgement on me. Hell, I may find that working at Wal Mart or Taco Bell is my true passion!! I may end up working 10 different jobs over the next year until I find something that suits me and truly makes me happy. I'm really excited to get started and just hope and pray that I find something that is rewarding to me...that I feel passionate about and that I enjoy doing. I'm tired of waking up each morning with the feeling of dread....I need a change dammit!!
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