Work Begins

So, today is my last day of freedom. I begin my new job tomorrow and am torn as to whether or not I am looking forward to it. I am flying to South Carolina in the morning and will begin training as a project manager for a fuel delivery software company. I'm really nervous about it because everyone there seems super smart and on top of their game. I know they would not have offered me the job if they hadn't felt the same way about me! It's just, project management is a highly involved and very difficult job to do. You have to keep everyone on track and be on top of EVERYTHING and step on toes to get your job done. I worry that I am going to go into this without any friends because I am going to be on everyone's case until they get their jobs done!!

Look, I know I can do the job, it's just weird for me to be doing it for another company. I was with my former company for 16 years and it is all that I have ever known. I worry that everyone will be smarter and faster than me. I was one of the golden children at my former company and everyone came to ME for help and for information. I was valued...and I worry that I may not be as valuable here and that worries me. Failure worries me. I need to find my confidence!

Move Complete

Ahhhh, the move to Indianapolis is now complete. It's been a long rough week so far...mainly due to all of the unpacking and cleaning. We have so much work to do but a limited amount of time to do it before Rob goes back to work. We do not want to spend all of our time working on the house while he is on vacation so we are trying to make a little fun time. We managed to make it to the movies earlier in the week and we visited my holy place a few times...yes, I am talking about the Wally World!

I've actually been feeling a little under the weather this week. I'm not sure if it is nerves and stress or if something is going on with me but, only time will tell! It's probably some type of chemical from all of the cleaners I have been using this week. The old bachelor pad is starting to turn into a home now! No more pool table in the middle of the living room and the road gear cases have finally gone back to their rightful owners!! Trust me folks, those two items have been a major battle for the ol' Shannie Bug to win!

New Beginnings

So I'm sitting here on the floor in my empty dining room waiting for my Fiance to arrive. I'm moving to Indianapolis tomorrow to be with him and my life is going to change forever.

I have lived in my apartment for 10 years. I've also lived alone for those 10 years with the exception of one roommate that only lasted for 3 months. I've always been so independent and have never relied upon anyone for anything. The times that I have tried to, I have been let down in the end. I'm getting ready to give up that independence to be with Rob and I'm a little nervous about it. It's not that I think that he will try to change me in any way shape or form, it's just that I have been doing things my way since I was 18 years old and now I have to consider someone else. Sure, I've been in relationships before where I tried to be considerate, but this is on a totally different level. I've always been the one in control...a natural born leader...and I worry that my take charge attitude may rub off on him the wrong way. He's been on his own for a long while also and has his own independence. He has the same fears that I do. But, ultimately, we know that a life without one another would be totally unacceptable! I'm ready to take this plunge and dive in head first and worry about the confrontations later. We have agreed to be patient with one another and to love one another no matter what challenges we face over the next couple of months while we get acclimated to one another. It's gonna be a wild ride!!

Miss the kitty

Dropped off Boo in Indy this past weekend. It's going to be more than 2 weeks before I get to see him again. I miss my little buddy....

Uggggghhhhh

Enough already!! November 3rd had better get here soon or I'm going to kick it's ass!! I wish I could move TODAY!! I would so love to walk in to my job tomorrow and tell them I quit but I will uphold my promise to stay until the end of the month. I'm sure I will miss people but I will not miss the job!

Truly Blessed

Great things have happened in my life this year....I feel truly blessed by the man above!

I've found happiness in my love life and am now engaged.

I excelled at the workplace and was promoted to a higher position in the company.

I gave my notice at work so that I can move to Indianapolis to be with my fiance and in return was offered a job by one of our partnering companies.

My new job will allow me to work from home and also travel the country for free. It also pays me more than I am making now and appears to offer great benefits (will know more about the health and dental benefits once I begin working)!!

On the brink....

Here it is. October 1st...the beginning of my last month at work and my last month in Missouri. Exciting and scary all at the same time. My fiance came to town last weekend and moved a load of my furniture and boxes which has made the fact that I am moving all the more real to me. This past weekend I cleaned out my spare closets and found a ton of old pictures that brought back a lot of great memories. It actually made me sad and a bit depressed that I am leaving...but, I have to remember that those are only pictures and that the girl who is in most of them no longer exists. Those friends have long since moved on in their lives and it is time that I do so in mine.


I have no idea what the future is going to hold for me. I'm moving to Indy for love and that is all that I am going to have! I do not have a job or anything lined up yet...for once in my life, I am being irresponsible! I never thought in a million years I would quit my job when I have so many bills to pay. I began saving money though several months ago and will have plenty to tie me over until I find a job....so I can't say that I'm being too risky! I'm going to be alright no matter what job I find. My fiance is a great guy and will take care of me and will see to it that I am happy and well taken care of. I will do the same for him...we waited a long time to find this kind of happiness. We deserve every ounce that we get!

I'm traveling to Indy in a couple of weeks to open up a new bank account and to drop off my kitty Boo at my new house. I am going to go 3 whole weeks without seeing him...I'm already feeling lonely and depressed! You never realize just how much a pet means to you until they are gone. My fiance is going to have a lovely time cleaning his litter box!! LOL